Thursday, November 21, 2013

Finding Balance

I'm going to warn you I'm little bit everywhere on this post.
Here it goes.
Having a big family is a challenge because
you have so many things that need your attention.
The kids need attention, 
I have one in in each stage of childhood 
a toddler, preschooler, elementary age,
pre-tween and high schooler.
my husband,
the house,
family,
friends,
my shop.
Sometimes I feel like I'm being pulled in many different ways
....I don't know which way to go. 
I need to find a balance. 
I don't want the kids to feel neglected,
I try to support each of them in all there activities.
It can be challenging at times...actually a lot of the time.
So what usually happens is that something is neglected and
for me that WON'T be my family.
So it is the blog and my shop. (And to be honest sometimes the house.)
My shop is not where I'd like it to be.
The blog is not where I want it to be.
But in the season of life that I am in,
it will have to be.
It doesn't mean I am not going to keep trying to grow/improve my shop or write on the blog.
Because honestly these two things release stress for me, it is my creative outlet.
I love making meaningful jewelry. (More on this later)
Also I have found I love to write and not only for me but for my kids,
there will come a day
when I can't remember
a story, or how I felt that day,
or remember how I felt when Daniel turned one.
Or perhaps our love story (which I still need to finish),
or our adventures.
The blog is where my kids one day can come and read about our adventures.
Maybe learn a lesson from one of my experiences.
It is a place where I can share my thoughts, my feelings and our journey.
It is my journal.



Anyhow, I guess what I am saying is that I won't beat myself up for
not writing as much as I ought to or want to.
I don't want to write just to put something on the blog,
I want my writing to be raw & genuine......to be me.
I won't be upset because my shop isn't as big as others.
I will continue to praise God for every order I receive,
which is a blessing from Him.
Because right now I have the most important job I'll ever have in my life and
that is to be a mom to these 5 amazing kids.
I don't want to miss out on being there for them.
They only stay little for a short amount of time.
I will be present and be in their lives.
I believe God will only give you so much you can handle.
He knows me better than I know myself and He knows whats best for me
and our family.
I will continue to trust in Him and praise Him.
Because everyday I need Him.
I can not be the mom, wife, woman, daughter, sister and friend that
He has called me to be on my own.
It is with His strength and grace alone that I can live each day.

So with that I hope you will stick around
and pop in every once an awhile
to see what we've been up to.





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